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Lee Abbey Writers

Creative Writing Holiday

at Lee Abbey, North Devon 7-11 May 2007

Our themes were ‘Ways, Means and Levels’

 We met in the Chapel and were mostly confined to the house as it hardly stopped raining long enough for us to enjoy the spectacular scenery and abundant wild  flowers. Here are most of the 25 writers - an exceptional group of people. We had a great time despite the weather.

Left to right (if you spot any mistakes please let Chris know!) Front row: Chris, Ivor, Sylvia, Mo, Cathy, Lois
Second row:  Sylvena, Olwen, Olive, Gina, Valerie, Michael
Third row: Ann, Rosemary, Valerie, Anne, Jenny, Ben, Rosemary, Klaus, Ed
At back: Rita from Lee Abbey’s Host Team

Missing from photo: Nicola from the Host Team, Sarah and Ozzie her guide-dog who have unfortunately disappeared off to the right, David, Sue and Rob who were unwell and John who was taking the photo.

I’ve posted some of the work done during the holiday below.

 Please note that all are copyright to their original authors who give permission for these pieces to be read out loud but not copied in any form in print.

 

Feedback in small groups was important. Here are ‘The Dreamers’ - Anne, Valerie, Ed, Rosemary and Jenny. Meals were just as good - here, for a  last breakfast together are Cathy, Mo, Ann, Rosemary and her non-writing husband and Sylvena

Ways

A Celtic Knot, by Olwen Davies

Strands.
Travelling in formation.
In straight parallel lines.

Suddenly
They divide and diverge
Weaving among each other

Forming
Unique and intricate
The Knot

Not too tight or too loose
Neither stifling nor strangling
Not slack or careless

All strands perfectly placed
Bowing and embracing
With care and precision

Enabling each strand
To flow and create
The precious pattern

A safe, strong net
Capturing for a moment
Words and thoughts

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Sylvia and Ivor Green learnt a good deal about the ways of God and of man, to say nothing of long journeys, when they lived and worked with their young family in a very remote part of the world. Here Sylvia writes of their arrival

Journey to the Tilopi

My husband Ivor and our five year old son Tony had gone on the first flight with some of our things.

I am now sitting on the right of three seats, next to an open door because of the overwhelming heat, flying above the canopy of jungle trees and sago swamps, the remainder of our equipment in the hold. Our seven year old daughter Elizabeth is on my left between myself and the pilot. The whirring of the small helicopter blades was overpowering the comments of our pilot. I watched as he marked in the land features we were flying over on his map and I saw that the whole area was in white with the words 'Uncharted Territory' written across it.

My thoughts were saying, 'Most people would give their eye teeth to be where I am today so why am I afraid to be going into this godforsaken place?'

And God said, 'Because I am with you and I am sending you, it is not God forsaken.'

We landed safely on Dofu Hill in the Lakes Plains of Irian Jaya, our home to be, and the first words I heard and understood above the hubbub of the people waiting to welcome us was, 'Hello, Mum. This place is great. They have red mud.'  Tony was already playing in the mud with his new friends.

We were home.

Sylvia Green ©  2007

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Nicola Such wrote about ways of being in her poemDrifting Days’

I am drifting, drifting
Far away from here
Hoping to escape from my darkness and my fear.
If I sail on quietly
Perhaps no-one will see
The shadow of the sadness that is haunting me.

Any moment storms could break
And I’ll be drowning in despair
But for now I’ll tell myself
That they’re not real and I don’t care.

I always sink, I have to say
Every time I drift away
I always end up where I started
Wishing I had not departed
Without a map or guide or chart
To navigate my frozen heart.

When will I learn that I can run
But cannot leave myself behind?
My drifting takes me nowhere near
The answers that I long to find.

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Sylvena Farrant is seconded by LCM to work in residential care and nursing homes and has an amazing understanding of the fears, needs and losses but also potential and belovedness of elderly people. She was thinking of Job 23:10 when she wrote this. ‘He knows the way that I take.’

 GROWING OLD.

       “I’ve lost so many of my family and church
       Please, Lord, don’t You leave me in the lurch!”
     “I have promised never to leave you nor forsake
       And I keep every one of the promises I make.”

       “But I have lost my  independence
         To protect me I have built a fence”
         “Is that so hard, if you are depending on Me?
         Deep inside, by my grace, you can be truly free.”

     “But I have lost my garden and my home
     And seem to have nowhere to call my own.”
     “I, too, had no home of my own,
       My pillow, my bed, were always on loan.”

     “But I have lost my mobility.
       Frailty has replaced agility.”
       “On the cross I was totally immobilised
     So my great Love for you could be realised.”

     “But I feel no use to anybody
       My life used to count, now I’m down and out”
       “You are very special, precious to Me,
       I’ve good plans for you, trust Me and you’ll see.”

       “But I am so bored, very often ignored,
         I struggle to exist, aches and pains  – what a list!”
       “Such struggles I never ignore,
         I know when you’re hurting to the core
         But I have made and I will carry
         Rest in Me, talk to Me
         Don’t wrestle, just nestle
         And your attitude will turn to gratitude.
         I know the way that you take, I love you
         I promise never, ever, to forsake you
         Just be, for Me.”

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Ann Anosike wrote this, inspired by the ways of God and man and in particular her attempts at pottery-painting, one of the optional activities on offer.

Today, I made a stab at pottery.
I gazed at my creation.
A nipper with a stomach full of ‘e’ numbers
could do better.
Look at the efforts of others!

Then I marvelled at the scope of the Creator.
Put a paint-brush in my hand
and my mind is blank as the canvas,
yet words stirring from the same mind,
swift, unfettered, sleek
as a sharp blade,
speaking of the mercy
of the Creator.

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Valerie Waters wrote about ways and means of inspiration in writing... and life

Never to have arrived at the right place

But always to be about to begin again -
the project laid aside - forgotten;

later remembered in fading images.

Waiting for the strong overwhelming voice;

then the glimpsed figure standing at the door
the hand upraised to knock.

At last, opening the door for a shaft
of light to fall on the page.

 

 

Means

Writer’s Block, by Olwen Davies

Waiting, pen hovering, hesitant and uncertain. The page blank and the brain empty.
And yet, unknown to me, the words are all there.
Waiting, tussling with each other, squashed up against a glass wall, ready to come tumbling out.

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Making Sense of Meaning

Because we had no language in common and no interpreter, many things puzzled us about the Tilopi.

One question we asked ourselves was, “How can your older brother be younger than you?”

In Elopi, a language of the Indonesian province of Papua, there is no general word for ‘brother’, only specific ones: ‘boi’ for your older brother, and ‘ida’ for your younger brother. These words are also used for your cousins.  We realised that whether a cousin is your ‘boi’ or your ‘ida’ depends not on whether they are older than you but on whether their father is older or younger than your father.

But there was something much stranger to us. It showed that although in our culture we basically use relationship terms to refer to biological relationships, in Elopi they primarily describe people with a certain set of responsibilities and privileges.

We found that your mother's sisters are also your ‘mothers’ as in many countries, and that your mother's brothers are your ‘uncles’ as in our own culture, but we also found that all your father's brothers and sisters are also your ‘fathers’. So, many Tilopi have a female ‘father’.  That was more unexpected.

Ivor Green ©  2007

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Mean

Mean.  Nasty.  Selfish.  Ungenerous. I know someone like that.  There must be others too. They calculate everything, even their words, so that they can always get the upper hand and play the trump card.

Writing this, however, although its true, has left me feeling very mean. Forgive me, Lord, and help me to forget the hurt.

Sylvia Green ©  2007

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Shaun’ by Nicola Such

Shaun stands there,
His eyes glaring through the branches.
Pain. Anger. Fear.
Keep away, he says silently.
                                       I wait.
His body is locked, forced.
“We’re getting a new car,” he says; teeth clenched.
“That’s nice, isn’t it?” I ask
“Mum said she’d lock me in the boot of the old car and leave me there.”                        Oh.

Inside… I weep.
Shaun.
If only I could take you in my arms.
Take you home. But I can’t touch you… I’m your teacher.
Still… I want you to know that I see.
I know.
I watch what happens to you every day. I pray.

Twenty minutes.
It took twenty minutes to persuade Shaun out of the hedge that day.
We walked back inside, hand in hand.
But it wasn’t the last time and I can’t always be there.

Shaun… I wonder… how are you today?

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COVER UP by Jenny Speller

  You’ve got the best of all
  possible worlds, they said.

   I have, I said.
   But I hadn’t; not any more.
 

   You must be living the
   life of Riley, they said.

   I am, I said.
   But I wasn’t: not any more.
 

   Why don’t we put something
   in the diary? they said.

   Why don’t we? I said.
   But we didn’t; not any more.
 

   We wish we could be
   like you, they said –

   so confident, so in demand,
   so busy, so successful,
   so self-assured, so certain

   of who you are.

   I don’t, I said.

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MEANING

I didn't realise there was no meaning in my life,
until Jesus showed up

Gina Lipman © 9th May 2007

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Levels

SHAPE 2000* by Olwen Davies

Wide Horizons; those were the words we regularly prayed about during the six months we interceded for the team our church was sending out to Port Elizabeth in South Africa. By the time it came for the team members to leave, we the intercessors felt those going out to South Africa were our precious children and they were on loan only, to the congregation of Port Elizabeth

Often the image when praying for SHAPE 2000* was of a wide horizon. It was not an image of high definition, but rather a blur of yellow and blue, as land meets sky, with smudges of green and brown in the distance. An image of a wide expanse of landscape, blurred by the haze of the heat and dust. There was stillness and a sense of waiting – the only movement was the heat in the distance. All was silent and still.

I remember around that time being lead to read a book that referred to churches as being either settlers or pioneers. We thought the team members were the pioneers and we, the intercessors, who stayed at home to pray for them, the settlers. That was until, suddenly, in an instant, when not even thinking about South Africa, I realised that we had got it totally wrong. It was we, the intercessors who were the pioneers. Although we had never left the living room where we met to pray, while there, we had gone ahead, to Africa, to help prepare the way.

Today, when thinking again about the image, it is less vivid than it was, but I notice something new. It is no longer silent. I can hear a distant rumble.

(*SHAPE 2000 – the name of the project – St Hugh’s and Port Elizabeth)

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Ed Olsworth-Peter wrote of his mother who died last year - reflecting how that feels, a year on

Now, a Person of the Past
Flesh gone cold.
Photographs speak of what was
And yet - she is.

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Unfortunately, Rob Cochrane fell ill part way through the holiday, but he still produced this autobiographical piece.

CRESTS AND TROUGHS

To live perpetually on the crest of some wave, borne towards an unknown but alluring shore, free alike from trailing sinuous sea-wrack that would ensnare and the cries of those battling for their very existence in the depths of those mountainous seas....

 How thrilling.  How enthralling.  And how terrible never to experience the God-given rapture of lesser mortals when, for just a few moments maybe, one escapes the conflict to have just a glimpse of the vision being revealed right in front of our eyes. A view perhaps of unimaginable beauty which almost snatches away the breath in its loveliness. Or at least a sight that brings fresh belief that there is something there beyond the constant strivings.  

 As a boy such thoughts never concerned me.  I had problems enough of my own.  When only three I managed to get meningitis, followed soon after with diphtheria – not the most promising  of beginnings.  Perhaps that was the start of itthe belief throughout almost all my working life that I would be promoted one step beyond my competence, with unmistakable results.  And it made no difference that my life seemed to be progressing very well, thank you, in other spheres.  

 Anyone but a fool would have seen the likely result of learning to play the organ, just for the pleasure of it. The inevitable happened when the organist/choirmaster of my church moved away and I was asked to take over, just until a permanent replacement could be found.  But fifty years later I was still a church organist, periodically conducting performances of oratorios by joint choirs and loving every moment.

 My other great joy was the stage. When I first joined a major amateur operatic society, I was more than happy taking part as a simple chorus member. The producer, an unlikely squat fellow who always wore a flat cap atop his walrus moustache, had other ideas. For years he coached me unobtrusively in every aspect of stage work until years later _ against my every expectation or even wish _ I found myself the producer.  With all the headaches and none of the rewards until I read the press coverage newspaper ‘Crit’ after each opening night. Then read it again almost unbelievingly.

 What followed was almost more unbelievable. My job took me to the London area where the pressures would leave me no time for such frivolities as organ playing or stage work.  Or so I thought.  But I had underestimated the Machiavellian minds of the local Presbyterian minister and his ally, the vicar. Enmeshing me in fresh organ playing was child’s play to such experts.  But they reached new heights in persuading me produce a performance of the controversial ‘A Man Dies’ for the youth of both churches.  The success was a mixed blessing, because they instantly demanded that I provide a repeat: and when I pleased that there was no obvious follow-up, the reply came ‘Well, write your own.’ 

 I don’t expect anyone to believe what followed. My very first musical drama ‘My Son a Stranger´ was so well received that I found myself appointed to the Diocesan Drama Advisory Committee. (Without having been consulted.)  But it was the sequel that I can still scarcely credit.

 Out of the blue came a telephone call asking if I would like to take part in recording some radio Biblical sketches.  The mere opportunity was all but unbelievable.  A chance to perform on radio, without even having to learn any lines in advance.  My acceptance was all but incoherent, and the trouble only started when I joined the assembled group. All was going well when Chris, the BBC producer, called us to order ready to start the first recording.  Which was when, to my utter horror, I found myself saying ‘But nobody would speak lines like these.  Not in real life !’ Wishing instantly that the floor would swallow me up. 

 Without blinking an eyelid Chris declared ‘Alright everybody, take five.’ Adding ‘Rob, edit those lines – and not just your own.’  Adding ‘It would be nice to finish this Lookout recording before midnight !’ 

 We did. Even if I went home never expecting another phone call. 

 I was wrong, even if it was another twelve months before a voice on the phone invited me to take a look at some more scripts.  This time before the proposed recording session. I happily agreed, not in the least surprised when I read the bunch of scripts thrust into my hand before saying that some would be suitable after editing: but that the others just would not work.

 It was my honest opinion. I owed Christ nothing less.  But nothing had prepared me for his bland reply ‘Then you had better get on with it. You are the script editor of Lookout !’

 That was the beginning of six of the happiest years of my life. Having to produce a polished script against a weekly deadline, and to blazes with the pressures of my day to day life. A job made no easier because each sketch had to fit a set Biblical theme which would grab the attention of young teenagers who rarely (if ever) went to church.  Dramatisation of Bible stories was no problem.  It was the others which caused the headaches. Frequently the problem would be solved thanks to the introduction of the well-meaning if bemused Jim Burton, plus his son Dick and the lolloping hound Rufus. At other times more extreme measures were needed, such as the sketch Infernal Nuisance which started when the Principal of the Infernal Training College was lecturing to the third-year demons.     

 The BBC Lookout series eventually ended to my intense regret, though at the time I had already got involved in other writing projects.  And I was still enjoying life when it turned into a trauma which threatened a total nervous breakdown if not worse. My recovery took time. Ages during which I railed against God, demanding to know why he had not been more responsive to my desperate prayers. 

 What followed eventually was something else again.  My daughter had found for me a new home, which was good.  But what mattered even more was the warm response of the church congregation I had just joined.  For the first time in years I felt like the prodigal son, being welcomes back home.   Right then only one thing more was needed, and that was finding myself once more on the organ stool playing for regular services.  Except, of course, it didn’t stop there. 

 Thinking back over my life, things I had taken for granted suddenly seemed different. Like my enjoyment of organ playing: not to mention the times I conducted a joint choir in a major work, feeling the response as they reacted to every direction.  And suddenly I feel very humble, thanking God for the gifts that he had given me _ and hoping that I would use them to his greater glory.

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WALKING ON MANY LEVELS (a five-day walk in New Zealand)

The beginning of the walk was exciting
Anticipation great
The landscape amazing, surrounded by mountains
As we begin the walk the way is quite flat
In between the mountains which surround us
A type of pale yellow grass covers the ground
As we walk we feel many stones under foot
And you watch your step or you may twist an ankle
But this doesn't take away from the excitement
Of this amazing walk ahead of us
Six whole days of walking on many levels

The day of the mountain arrives
Third day of the walk
Having survived camping outdoors
In the middle of nowhere
No facilities - I'll leave it to your imagination!
We climb up the different levels
All 3600 feet of it
Each level different
With its own special scene
The ground below showing a different aspect
As you climb higher and higher
Lunch stop - perfect in every way
A ledge carved out just for us
Rocks strategically placed, as if by the hand of God
To be seats for us to sit on
A waterfall gently cascades to our right
Ahhh, truly an idyllic resting place

We reach the top, Joseph's Mount, by name
Very meaningful for me as God spoke much
Through the life of Joseph, to me
Who can describe the view from a mountain top
Spectacular, marvellous, awesome, incredible
A view like no other - seeing for miles
The other mountains looking small and attainable
Because you are on a level with them

A rest to admire the view
A master piece by the original Artist
Now you would want to be an eagle
And fly from the mountain top
Surveying all that is around you

Rest over, we go over the other side
For now we must climb down through the levels
Or so we thought......

Heeeelllpppp......
It's one long sheer drop
No levels to cut off the view
Of how really high you are
Legs turn to jelly as you
Take in the sheer drop - the enormity
Of the height you are really at
It has to be tackled or the alternative
You stay on the mountain top alone
So step by step, moment by moment

Getting lower bit by bit
'Til finally you touch level ground
Though not before you have crossed
Mid way down the mountain
Some very slippery shingle - no fun!
But you have made it to the bottom
In one piece!
The elation knows no bounds
Amazing accomplishment
You feel you've conquered Everest
The feeling cannot be described
It's a feeling of pure satisfaction
Yet that doesn't quite cover it

Two days later and it's the day of the hills
Up and down, up and down, on and on
Forever it seems
What doesn't help is
The interminable rain
Keeps on coming - never ceasing
Like a sheet, cutting through our
Supposed water proof clothing
After the 5th or 6th hill
All you can hear is 'are we there yet?'
'Is this the last one?'
The guides say each time
'We think so - not far now'
Echoes of 'are we there yet?'
From children on a journey
And the parents trying to placate them
With 'nearly, nearly'
Up and down, up and down, on and on
We finally, finally reach camp
A wet and bedraggled lot
Not the elated, excited bunch
From the day of the mountain
No indeed, just very wet and very fed up
We don't dry out completely
As we get ready to sleep in wet tents
But in better spirits, having eaten and rested

Next day, our final day, was a gentle walk
The rain had stopped, but the earth damp
The sky was grey, we couldn't see very far
It was a pleasant day to take a walk
Only a hill or two we were glad to see
Then it was level, then a slight incline
Easy going
We saw our first living creature -
Apart from our group - for six days
There were hedges along the way
Which had flowers and big thorns
But beautiful
I looked ahead and as I watched
The cloud began to lift from the earth
Like a curtain raises at the beginning
Of a play in a theatre
As it lifted higher and higher
A far better scene than any play was revealed
God's creation in all its splendour
Opened up before me
First a beautiful crystal river
Then the bottom of mountains
The grass surrounding green as emeralds
The the whole scene appeared
Beautiful as it sparkled like jewels
In the bright sunlight
At the very peak of the mountains
Snow glistened like diamonds
"I beheld and I saw that it was good"
Resounded around me
As God revealed His creation
In all it's majesty

Gina Lipman © 10th May 2007

Lee Abbey

The two photos below that prove what a beautiful place Lee Abbey is when absence of rain allows you to see it - taken on the final morning when it cleared up just before we left!

Valerie Hunter wrote this verse about the whole Lee Abbey experience after she arrived home. I’m sure the rest of us who were there would join our thanks to hers for all that Lee Abbey gave us. Apart from all that rain!

Memories of Lee Abbey keep flowing through my mind,
The staff called Community were ever so kind.
They fed us and they watered us and taught us new songs,
From Iona and from Africa is where the words belong.

Set in dramatic landscape, hills, valleys and rock face,
All combine together to create a beautiful place.
Goats, sheep and cattle, birds soaring overhaed
Woods and open spaces and many paths to tread.

A library full of books, a peaceful place to be,
A desk at the window with a wonderful view of the sea,
Lounges to relax in; no TV, oh! what bliss,
No mobile signals either, something else we didn’t miss.

Although called an Abbey, not a monk was in sight
But the people that fill it all know of God’s might.
We are all His family to workship and to pray
And each and everyone of us so enjoyed our stay.

 

Here is our host team leader, Dud Meese, looking unsually worried, with Joyce Elliot, one of our pastoral helpers.

 

 

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