Ways
A Celtic Knot, by Olwen Davies
Strands. Travelling in formation. In straight parallel lines.
Suddenly They divide and diverge Weaving among each other
Forming Unique and intricate The Knot
Not too tight or too loose Neither stifling nor strangling Not slack or careless
All strands perfectly placed Bowing and embracing With care and precision
Enabling each strand To flow and create The precious pattern
A safe, strong net Capturing for a moment Words and thoughts
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Sylvia and Ivor Green learnt a good deal about the ways of God and of man, to say nothing of long journeys, when they lived and worked with their young family in a very remote part of the world. Here Sylvia writes of their arrival
Journey to the Tilopi
My husband Ivor and our five year old son Tony had gone on the first flight with some of our things.
I am now sitting on the right of three seats, next to an open door because of the overwhelming heat, flying above the canopy of jungle trees and sago swamps, the remainder of our equipment in the hold. Our seven year old daughter Elizabeth is on my left between myself and the pilot. The whirring of the small helicopter blades was overpowering the comments of our pilot. I watched as he marked in the land features we were flying over on his map and I saw that the whole area was in white with the words 'Uncharted Territory' written across it.
My thoughts were saying, 'Most people would give their eye teeth to be where I am today so why am I afraid to be going into this godforsaken place?'
And God said, 'Because I am with you and I am sending you, it is not God forsaken.'
We landed safely on Dofu Hill in the Lakes Plains of Irian Jaya, our home to be, and the first words I heard and understood above the hubbub of the people waiting to welcome us was, 'Hello, Mum. This place is great. They have red mud.' Tony was already playing in the mud with his new friends.
We were home.
Sylvia Green © 2007
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Nicola Such wrote about ways of being in her poem ‘Drifting Days’
I am drifting, drifting Far away from here Hoping to escape from my darkness and my fear. If I sail on quietly Perhaps no-one will see The shadow of the sadness that is haunting me.
Any moment storms could break And I’ll be drowning in despair But for now I’ll tell myself That they’re not real and I don’t care.
I always sink, I have to say Every time I drift away I always end up where I started Wishing I had not departed Without a map or guide or chart To navigate my frozen heart.
When will I learn that I can run But cannot leave myself behind? My drifting takes me nowhere near The answers that I long to find.
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Sylvena Farrant is seconded by LCM to work in residential care and nursing homes and has an amazing understanding of the fears, needs and losses but also potential and belovedness of elderly people. She was thinking of Job 23:10 when she wrote this. ‘He knows the way that I take.’
GROWING OLD.
“I’ve lost so many of my family and church Please, Lord, don’t You leave me in the lurch!” “I have promised never to leave you nor forsake And I keep every one of the promises I make.”
“But I have lost my independence To protect me I have built a fence” “Is that so hard, if you are depending on Me? Deep inside, by my grace, you can be truly free.”
“But I have lost my garden and my home And seem to have nowhere to call my own.” “I, too, had no home of my own, My pillow, my bed, were always on loan.”
“But I have lost my mobility. Frailty has replaced agility.” “On the cross I was totally immobilised So my great Love for you could be realised.”
“But I feel no use to anybody My life used to count, now I’m down and out” “You are very special, precious to Me, I’ve good plans for you, trust Me and you’ll see.”
“But I am so bored, very often ignored, I struggle to exist, aches and pains – what a list!” “Such struggles I never ignore, I know when you’re hurting to the core But I have made and I will carry Rest in Me, talk to Me Don’t wrestle, just nestle And your attitude will turn to gratitude. I know the way that you take, I love you I promise never, ever, to forsake you Just be, for Me.”
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Ann Anosike wrote this, inspired by the ways of God and man and in particular her attempts at pottery-painting, one of the optional activities on offer.
Today, I made a stab at pottery. I gazed at my creation. A nipper with a stomach full of ‘e’ numbers could do better. Look at the efforts of others!
Then I marvelled at the scope of the Creator. Put a paint-brush in my hand and my mind is blank as the canvas, yet words stirring from the same mind, swift, unfettered, sleek as a sharp blade, speaking of the mercy of the Creator.
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Valerie Waters wrote about ways and means of inspiration in writing... and life
Never to have arrived at the right place
But always to be about to begin again - the project laid aside - forgotten;
later remembered in fading images.
Waiting for the strong overwhelming voice;
then the glimpsed figure standing at the door the hand upraised to knock.
At last, opening the door for a shaft of light to fall on the page.
Means
Writer’s Block, by Olwen Davies
Waiting, pen hovering, hesitant and uncertain. The page blank and the brain empty. And yet, unknown to me, the words are all there. Waiting, tussling with each other, squashed up against a glass wall, ready to come tumbling out.
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Making Sense of Meaning
Because we had no language in common and no interpreter, many things puzzled us about the Tilopi.
One question we asked ourselves was, “How can your older brother be younger than you?”
In Elopi, a language of the Indonesian province of Papua, there is no general word for ‘brother’, only specific ones: ‘boi’ for your older brother, and ‘ida’ for your younger brother. These words are also used for your cousins. We realised that whether a cousin is your ‘boi’ or your ‘ida’ depends not on whether they are older than you but on whether their father is older or younger than your father.
But there was something much stranger to us. It showed that although in our culture we basically use relationship terms to refer to biological relationships, in Elopi they primarily describe people with a certain set of responsibilities and privileges.
We found that your mother's sisters are also your ‘mothers’ as in many countries, and that your mother's brothers are your ‘uncles’ as in our own culture, but we also found that all your father's brothers and sisters are also your ‘fathers’. So, many Tilopi have a female ‘father’. That was more unexpected.
Ivor Green © 2007
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Mean
Mean. Nasty. Selfish. Ungenerous. I know someone like that. There must be others too. They calculate everything, even their words, so that they can always get the upper hand and play the trump card.
Writing this, however, although its true, has left me feeling very mean. Forgive me, Lord, and help me to forget the hurt.
Sylvia Green © 2007
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‘Shaun’ by Nicola Such
Shaun stands there, His eyes glaring through the branches. Pain. Anger. Fear. Keep away, he says silently. I wait. His body is locked, forced. “We’re getting a new car,” he says; teeth clenched. “That’s nice, isn’t it?” I ask “Mum said she’d lock me in the boot of the old car and leave me there.” Oh.
Inside… I weep. Shaun. If only I could take you in my arms. Take you home. But I can’t touch you… I’m your teacher. Still… I want you to know that I see. I know. I watch what happens to you every day. I pray.
Twenty minutes. It took twenty minutes to persuade Shaun out of the hedge that day. We walked back inside, hand in hand. But it wasn’t the last time and I can’t always be there.
Shaun… I wonder… how are you today?
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COVER UP by Jenny Speller
You’ve got the best of all possible worlds, they said.
I have, I said. But I hadn’t; not any more.
You must be living the life of Riley, they said.
I am, I said. But I wasn’t: not any more.
Why don’t we put something in the diary? they said.
Why don’t we? I said. But we didn’t; not any more.
We wish we could be like you, they said –
so confident, so in demand, so busy, so successful, so self-assured, so certain
of who you are.
I don’t, I said.
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MEANING
I didn't realise there was no meaning in my life, until Jesus showed up
Gina Lipman © 9th May 2007
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Levels
SHAPE 2000* by Olwen Davies
Wide Horizons; those were the words we regularly prayed about during the six months we interceded for the team our church was sending out to Port Elizabeth in South Africa. By the time it came for the team members to leave, we the intercessors felt those going out to South Africa were our precious children and they were on loan only, to the congregation of Port Elizabeth
Often the image when praying for SHAPE 2000* was of a wide horizon. It was not an image of high definition, but rather a blur of yellow and blue, as land meets sky, with smudges of green and brown in the distance. An image of a wide expanse of landscape, blurred by the haze of the heat and dust. There was stillness and a sense of waiting – the only movement was the heat in the distance. All was silent and still.
I remember around that time being lead to read a book that referred to churches as being either settlers or pioneers. We thought the team members were the pioneers and we, the intercessors, who stayed at home to pray for them, the settlers. That was until, suddenly, in an instant, when not even thinking about South Africa, I realised that we had got it totally wrong. It was we, the intercessors who were the pioneers. Although we had never left the living room where we met to pray, while there, we had gone ahead, to Africa, to help prepare the way.
Today, when thinking again about the image, it is less vivid than it was, but I notice something new. It is no longer silent. I can hear a distant rumble.
(*SHAPE 2000 – the name of the project – St Hugh’s and Port Elizabeth)
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Ed Olsworth-Peter wrote of his mother who died last year - reflecting how that feels, a year on
Now, a Person of the Past Flesh gone cold. Photographs speak of what was And yet - she is.
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Unfortunately, Rob Cochrane fell ill part way through the holiday, but he still produced this autobiographical piece.
CRESTS AND TROUGHS
To live perpetually on the crest of some wave, borne towards an unknown but alluring shore, free alike from trailing sinuous sea-wrack that would ensnare and the cries of those battling for their very existence in the depths of those mountainous seas....
How thrilling. How enthralling. And how terrible never to experience the God-given rapture of lesser mortals when, for just a few moments maybe, one escapes the conflict to have just a glimpse of the vision being revealed right in front of our eyes. A view perhaps of unimaginable beauty which almost snatches away the breath in its loveliness. Or at least a sight that brings fresh belief that there is something there beyond the constant strivings.
As a boy such thoughts never concerned me. I had problems enough of my own. When only three I managed to get meningitis, followed soon after with diphtheria – not the most promising of beginnings. Perhaps that was the start of it: the belief throughout almost all my working life that I would be promoted one step beyond my competence, with unmistakable results. And it made no difference that my life seemed to be progressing very well, thank you, in other spheres.
Anyone but a fool would have seen the likely result of learning to play the organ, just for the pleasure of it. The inevitable happened when the organist/choirmaster of my church moved away and I was asked to take over, just until a permanent replacement could be found. But fifty years later I was still a church organist, periodically conducting performances of oratorios by joint choirs and loving every moment.
My other great joy was the stage. When I first joined a major amateur operatic society, I was more than happy taking part as a simple chorus member. The producer, an unlikely squat fellow who always wore a flat cap atop his walrus moustache, had other ideas. For years he coached me unobtrusively in every aspect of stage work until years later _ against my every expectation or even wish _ I found myself the producer. With all the headaches and none of the rewards until I read the press coverage newspaper ‘Crit’ after each opening night. Then read it again almost unbelievingly.
What followed was almost more unbelievable. My job took me to the London area where the pressures would leave me no time for such frivolities as organ playing or stage work. Or so I thought. But I had underestimated the Machiavellian minds of the local Presbyterian minister and his ally, the vicar. Enmeshing me in fresh organ playing was child’s play to such experts. But they reached new heights in persuading me produce a performance of the controversial ‘A Man Dies’ for the youth of both churches. The success was a mixed blessing, because they instantly demanded that I provide a repeat: and when I pleased that there was no obvious follow-up, the reply came ‘Well, write your own.’
I don’t expect anyone to believe what followed. My very first musical drama ‘My Son a Stranger´ was so well received that I found myself appointed to the Diocesan Drama Advisory Committee. (Without having been consulted.) But it was the sequel that I can still scarcely credit.
Out of the blue came a telephone call asking if I would like to take part in recording some radio Biblical sketches. The mere opportunity was all but unbelievable. A chance to perform on radio, without even having to learn any lines in advance. My acceptance was all but incoherent, and the trouble only started when I joined the assembled group. All was going well when Chris, the BBC producer, called us to order ready to start the first recording. Which was when, to my utter horror, I found myself saying ‘But nobody would speak lines like these. Not in real life !’ Wishing instantly that the floor would swallow me up.
Without blinking an eyelid Chris declared ‘Alright everybody, take five.’ Adding ‘Rob, edit those lines – and not just your own.’ Adding ‘It would be nice to finish this Lookout recording before midnight !’
We did. Even if I went home never expecting another phone call.
I was wrong, even if it was another twelve months before a voice on the phone invited me to take a look at some more scripts. This time before the proposed recording session. I happily agreed, not in the least surprised when I read the bunch of scripts thrust into my hand before saying that some would be suitable after editing: but that the others just would not work.
It was my honest opinion. I owed Christ nothing less. But nothing had prepared me for his bland reply ‘Then you had better get on with it. You are the script editor of Lookout !’
That was the beginning of six of the happiest years of my life. Having to produce a polished script against a weekly deadline, and to blazes with the pressures of my day to day life. A job made no easier because each sketch had to fit a set Biblical theme which would grab the attention of young teenagers who rarely (if ever) went to church. Dramatisation of Bible stories was no problem. It was the others which caused the headaches. Frequently the problem would be solved thanks to the introduction of the well-meaning if bemused Jim Burton, plus his son Dick and the lolloping hound Rufus. At other times more extreme measures were needed, such as the sketch Infernal Nuisance which started when the Principal of the Infernal Training College was lecturing to the third-year demons.
The BBC Lookout series eventually ended to my intense regret, though at the time I had already got involved in other writing projects. And I was still enjoying life when it turned into a trauma which threatened a total nervous breakdown if not worse. My recovery took time. Ages during which I railed against God, demanding to know why he had not been more responsive to my desperate prayers.
What followed eventually was something else again. My daughter had found for me a new home, which was good. But what mattered even more was the warm response of the church congregation I had just joined. For the first time in years I felt like the prodigal son, being welcomes back home. Right then only one thing more was needed, and that was finding myself once more on the organ stool playing for regular services. Except, of course, it didn’t stop there.
Thinking back over my life, things I had taken for granted suddenly seemed different. Like my enjoyment of organ playing: not to mention the times I conducted a joint choir in a major work, feeling the response as they reacted to every direction. And suddenly I feel very humble, thanking God for the gifts that he had given me _ and hoping that I would use them to his greater glory.
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WALKING ON MANY LEVELS (a five-day walk in New Zealand)
The beginning of the walk was exciting Anticipation great The landscape amazing, surrounded by mountains As we begin the walk the way is quite flat In between the mountains which surround us A type of pale yellow grass covers the ground As we walk we feel many stones under foot And you watch your step or you may twist an ankle But this doesn't take away from the excitement Of this amazing walk ahead of us Six whole days of walking on many levels
The day of the mountain arrives Third day of the walk Having survived camping outdoors In the middle of nowhere No facilities - I'll leave it to your imagination! We climb up the different levels All 3600 feet of it Each level different With its own special scene The ground below showing a different aspect As you climb higher and higher Lunch stop - perfect in every way A ledge carved out just for us Rocks strategically placed, as if by the hand of God To be seats for us to sit on A waterfall gently cascades to our right Ahhh, truly an idyllic resting place
We reach the top, Joseph's Mount, by name Very meaningful for me as God spoke much Through the life of Joseph, to me Who can describe the view from a mountain top Spectacular, marvellous, awesome, incredible A view like no other - seeing for miles The other mountains looking small and attainable Because you are on a level with them
A rest to admire the view A master piece by the original Artist Now you would want to be an eagle And fly from the mountain top Surveying all that is around you
Rest over, we go over the other side For now we must climb down through the levels Or so we thought......
Heeeelllpppp...... It's one long sheer drop No levels to cut off the view Of how really high you are Legs turn to jelly as you Take in the sheer drop - the enormity Of the height you are really at It has to be tackled or the alternative You stay on the mountain top alone So step by step, moment by moment
Getting lower bit by bit 'Til finally you touch level ground Though not before you have crossed Mid way down the mountain Some very slippery shingle - no fun! But you have made it to the bottom In one piece! The elation knows no bounds Amazing accomplishment You feel you've conquered Everest The feeling cannot be described It's a feeling of pure satisfaction Yet that doesn't quite cover it
Two days later and it's the day of the hills Up and down, up and down, on and on Forever it seems What doesn't help is The interminable rain Keeps on coming - never ceasing Like a sheet, cutting through our Supposed water proof clothing After the 5th or 6th hill All you can hear is 'are we there yet?' 'Is this the last one?' The guides say each time 'We think so - not far now' Echoes of 'are we there yet?' From children on a journey And the parents trying to placate them With 'nearly, nearly' Up and down, up and down, on and on We finally, finally reach camp A wet and bedraggled lot Not the elated, excited bunch From the day of the mountain No indeed, just very wet and very fed up We don't dry out completely As we get ready to sleep in wet tents But in better spirits, having eaten and rested
Next day, our final day, was a gentle walk The rain had stopped, but the earth damp The sky was grey, we couldn't see very far It was a pleasant day to take a walk Only a hill or two we were glad to see Then it was level, then a slight incline Easy going We saw our first living creature - Apart from our group - for six days There were hedges along the way Which had flowers and big thorns But beautiful I looked ahead and as I watched The cloud began to lift from the earth Like a curtain raises at the beginning Of a play in a theatre As it lifted higher and higher A far better scene than any play was revealed God's creation in all its splendour Opened up before me First a beautiful crystal river Then the bottom of mountains The grass surrounding green as emeralds The the whole scene appeared Beautiful as it sparkled like jewels In the bright sunlight At the very peak of the mountains Snow glistened like diamonds "I beheld and I saw that it was good" Resounded around me As God revealed His creation In all it's majesty
Gina Lipman © 10th May 2007
Lee Abbey
The two photos below that prove what a beautiful place Lee Abbey is when absence of rain allows you to see it - taken on the final morning when it cleared up just before we left!
 Valerie Hunter wrote this verse about the whole Lee Abbey experience after she arrived home. I’m sure the rest of us who were there would join our thanks to hers for all that Lee Abbey gave us. Apart from all that rain!
Memories of Lee Abbey keep flowing through my mind, The staff called Community were ever so kind. They fed us and they watered us and taught us new songs, From Iona and from Africa is where the words belong.
Set in dramatic landscape, hills, valleys and rock face, All combine together to create a beautiful place. Goats, sheep and cattle, birds soaring overhaed Woods and open spaces and many paths to tread.
A library full of books, a peaceful place to be, A desk at the window with a wonderful view of the sea, Lounges to relax in; no TV, oh! what bliss, No mobile signals either, something else we didn’t miss.
Although called an Abbey, not a monk was in sight But the people that fill it all know of God’s might. We are all His family to workship and to pray And each and everyone of us so enjoyed our stay.
Here is our host team leader, Dud Meese, looking unsually worried, with Joyce Elliot, one of our pastoral helpers.
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